For a change, the D word isn’t referring to death.
I want to talk about something that is a taboo subject for Widows and Widowers.
I will start with stating that I am 26. And I don’t want to be on my own forever.
At some point, I may want to start dating again.
I don’t know when that time will be, or how it will come about, but I know that WHEN it happens, my feelings will be cast aside by a number of people. My decision will be judged and probably condemned.
I give zero fucks about this.
If I make this decision, I will make it as an adult, who has considered the implications to my life, and more importantly, my family’s life.
If I ever develop feelings for another person, it won’t take a single thing away from my love for Jason. As I stated in a couple of other posts, my love is frozen, and will move forward with me, whichever path I take. My heart is big enough to love again one day, without having to make space by losing love for someone else.
Some Widows date again within a month. Some wait years, and some never date again. It is no one’s place to judge when or why someone chooses to date. There is no time scale on grief or readiness to seek a new partner.
My main priority is my children, and unless people are cool with me bringing Barnaby on a date (ha!) I doubt there will be romance any time soon, but in the future, I hope I get swept off my feet again. Ok, maybe not literally, as I’m not the smallest of people, but some wooing would be good. (I can’t believe I used the term wooing. Wtf, How old am I?!)
So, in short, if you have a problem with the fact I, at some point, would like to date again, you can piss off 😀
If you are an interested male, stalking a Widow’s blog in the hopes that you can learn everything about her, and commence said sweeping, I like your style! My favourite colour is orange, I like beards and like it when someone sends you a song which describes how they feel. Bonus points for writing the song yourself and performing it on horseback whilst dressed as a knight. No biggy.
Now, to work on my self esteem. I could be here some time!!